~~Ena’s 5 Star Thoughts~~
–I hope you never allow yourself to believe I went through with it because you failed me in some way. All those nights you held me and just let me cry…you have no idea how many times you’ve already saved me. – Losing Hope
So if yall didn’t know Hopeless was my favorite read in 2012 and my second favorite read of all time – which is amazing because I have read a lot…So when I found out that Holder gets his voice and Colleen was giving us his voice I was ecstatic. I was so very eager to get my hands on Losing Hope because I wanted to know every little thought, every little whisper, every little emotion that Holder felt in Hopeless and Colleen Hoover did not disappoint. I was in a constant state of emotion while reading this, I felt like I was right there in the story I connected to Holder and Sky/Hope so much and I felt everything. I felt every smile, every laugh, every tear, every fear, everything and when an author can make a reader feel everything you know that, that author is an amazing storyteller and Colleen Hoover has proved to me again that she will give us more wonderful stories in the future.
When reading Hopeless did you ever wonder what Holder was thinking after Les died? When you were reading Hopeless did you ever wonder if their lives ever crossed paths after Hope was taken? Did you ever wonder exactly what Holder blamed himself for? Well in Losing Hope we get it all, we get Holder’s story. It is beautiful, heartwarming, devastating, and filled with so much love and hope and I am so glad we get to hear his voice. So this is my review for Losing Hope but I urge you if you haven’t read Hopeless yet please do not read this review and go get Hopeless, read it and fall in love with it than come back and read this.
‘The boy who lost Hope’ –Losing Hope
I can’t say enough about how perfect this book was – it just was!
You learn so many new things that you didn’t read in Hopeless and I have to say some of it shocked the hell out of me. It’s the same story but so much more because you get to see everything that was happening to Holder and let me tell you THERE. WAS. A LOT.
We all know what happened to Les but we learn so much more about Les and how Holder dealt with losing her. He opens his soul in this story and I wanted to grab it and handle it with care because I could tell how badly he was hurting just from his words and it broke my heart. I experienced the ugly cry again in Losing Hope and I can’t get over this story.
I went into this story thinking that we would get Hopeless from Holder’s POV but boy was I wrong – I learned so much more about him. His past, present, and future apart from Hope/Sky, we learned about him apart from Hopeless, this is really HIS story not his POV from Hopeless!
–Every single time I close my eyes I see Les’s eyes. Every time my mother looks at me, she’s watching me tell her that her daughter is dead for the second time. For the third time. For the thousandth time. Every time I take a breath or blink or speak, I experience her death all over again. I don’t sit here and wonder if the fact that she’s dead will ever sink in. I sit here and wonder when I’ll stop having to watch her die.–Losing Hope
Your heart will break for Holder learning all the things that he went through and all the guilt he held in himself for the things that happened to Les and Hope. It made me sad for him because none of it was his fault. I watched as he crumbled and lost all hope and all I wanted to do was comfort him and tell him everything was going to be okay.
The journey that Holder goes on in Losing Hope is a beautiful and sometimes scary journey. Knowing what happens I found myself anticipating the next scene, the next chapter wanting to know exactly how he reacted over a certain situation or a certain conversation. What I didn’t expect that I was so glad Colleen gave us was she gave us so much more of Holders reactions and so much more of his thoughts and it truly just made it that much more beautiful. I don’t think she could have done it any better.
Holder is still Holder and oh so much more. He is sexy, passionate, caring, loving, sometimes a bit confusing, but god he has a way with words.
“Let me inform you of something,” I say, lowering my voice. “The moment my lips touch yours, it will be your first kiss. Because if you’ve never felt anything when someone’s kissed you, then no one’s ever really kissed you. Not the way I plan on kissing you.”
Squuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuueeeeeee he makes my heart melt and I know he will make yours melt. He is just so Holder and just so Dean and just so everything that is beautiful in this world. I want my very own Holder to come home to every night because good grief the love that boy has inside him that he has to give is an all consuming love and that is the type of love I want.
I found myself smiling a lot while reading Losing Hope because I was remembering so many wonderful moment from Hopeless that I got to relive again since I didn’t write a review for Hopeless because it was before I started writing reviews which I am kind of sad about that I don’t have a review for Hopeless because it defiantly deserves an amazing review.
I smiled and remember the moment that Holder spoke these words to Sky and it quickly brought butterflies back to my belly.
“I live you, Sky,” I say against her lips. “I live you so much.”
Now you too can smile and gush over all things that are Dean Holder.
I even fell in love with Daniel in Losing Hope and Breckin too. You know Daniel is Holder’s closest friend and Breckin Sky’s second very best friend in the entire world. Daniel and Breckin brought a bunch of humor to this story and I found myself cracking up at some of the things that would come out of Daniel’s mouth!
“Why are you being such a cunt nugget?”
“I thought Mormons weren’t allowed to have caffeine,” I say to him.
Breckin shrugs. “I decided to break that rule the morning I woke up gay.”
I could continue to go on and on and on about Losing Hope because the pages within the bounds of this book hold so much and will pull out so many different emotions from you. But the point of this long review is that Colleen Hoover is brilliant. She gave us Hopeless and then gave us more of Holder in Losing Hope and all I can say is buy it, read it, and fall even more in love with Holder because I promise you Holder will forever hold a piece of your heart. He stole a bigger piece of my heart in this story and I can tell you, he will do the same to you!
–For the next few minutes, we’re completely lost in what feels like sheer perfection. Time has completely stopped, and all I’m thinking about while we kiss is how this is what saves people. Moments like these with people like her are what make all the suffering worth it. It’s moments like these that keep people looking forward and I can’t believe I’ve let them slip by for an entire month. – Losing Hope
Hopeless and Losing Hope will stay with me forever.