I made a conscious decision to cheat on my husband.
Now, before you judge me, hear my story. Hear how much I’m like you, how similar my thoughts are to your own. Yes, I’m a horrible person. Yes, I’ve done horrible things. Yes, I don’t deserve forgiveness. Yes, bad things happened because of my actions.
But I’m willing to bet I’ve done things that maybe, just maybe, you have thought of doing.
Maybe, just maybe, you’re not as innocent as you’d like to think.
Or maybe I’m not so guilty …
This novel has been out for a while and I knew I needed to find time to read it because any novel out there that touches on such a sore subject with so many people had to be amazing, at least to me. I wasn’t wrong, the only thing I hated was that I waited so long to read this. Stylo Fantome had the balls to write this story knowing that there would be backlash but I am here to say that I am so very happy she wrote this because this one was gut wrenching, heartbreaking, beautiful, damaged, breathtaking, I mean I could keep going and going. Before you all go ape shit because you are reading that I loved a book about cheating well let me say this. I do not agree with cheating, however, who am I to judge someone else when I have my own sins to deal with. So I won’t go through what the story is about because you can pretty much tell by the title and synopsis. But I will say this:
My Time in the Affair touched my soul because I completely got Mischa and understood her as I believe that most women if they were being truly honest with themselves would agree. Who doesn’t want to feel desired? Who doesn’t want to feel sexy? Who doesn’t want to have their lover/husband/boyfriend/girlfriend, etc. look at them with complete passion and ultimate hunger? Mischa was missing that in her marriage. A marriage more of convenience than passion, she finds herself slowly slipping into a routine of boredom. She loves her husband, he is best friend and that is the greatest problem. She doesn’t feel the spark, the electricity of lust when they are together and there lies the ultimate reason she has decided she will cheat on her husband just once so she can feel wanted and desired just once and get it out of her system, however, what Mischa never planned for was Tal.
Ugh I don’t know what else to say, the ending was scary for me because I didn’t know how this story was going to end. I devoured it and ate it up. It broke my heart and put it back together all at the same time. The passion and sparks and tingly feelings were all there when Mischa met Tal. That was passion, that was hunger, that was want and that was wrong. When you lose yourself in a marriage and you become to comfortable in the day-to-day life with your spouse you could start questioning things, I know I do. Am I still desirable to him? Does he still want to devour me? Mischa longed for that and Stylo did an amazing job writing her character. I felt her want, her desire, her need. I also felt her pain, her guilt and her grief. A lot of people will read this and hate every minute of it. Some will read it and have to put it down because they can’t read something about cheating. And than there are some that won’t even bat an eyelash because of the content, and that’s okay because to each is own but I am so happy that Stylo wrote this because this has touched me deeply.
My Time in the Affair quickly jumped the “my favorite read” ladder and has found a place in the top 5. I love stories that are realistic and ones that I can relate to even on a small scale. Stories that go against the norm and are told regardless of the backlash they could receive. Stories that stand up and say “here I am, love me or hate me, I don’t care because I need to be told so here I am laying it all bare”. So to Stylo Fantome I commend you for writing such a beautiful and soul gripping story that would undeniable cause controversy and doing it anyway. For me that makes this story mean even more. To all the readers out there that are leery because of the subject of the story I will say you should at least try because My Time in the Affair is truly a story of finding yourself again, of realizing that we are all humans and our feelings are the same. It’s a story of learning how to not only forgive yourself but forgive those that you love as well. It’s a story about never settling for something less than what we all deserve because if you are not happy than there is no way you can make your loved ones happy. To Tal and Mischa you will forever be engrained into my heart and I am so honored that you have shared your story with me.