*Author Note: This is not your average romance story. Some people will kill for love.*
He’s come to kill me.
I’m a user and abuser of my own body. In my darkest hour I sold my soul to the devil and now I must pay the price. With his gun to my head I have no choice but to listen and obey, but I refuse to go down easily. Nothing is stronger than the will to survive. My instincts kicked into full gear the second he stepped into my motel room.
Except when I look at him I see my own heart staring back at me. A history tainted by blood.
I don’t know his name, but I know he wants me. To save myself I’ll sacrifice my sanity. My body. My soul. Something tells me the x-shaped scar that marks his eye is the only escape I have. He is Mr. X: the man who comes to claim my life. Can I save myself before he demands my heart?
WARNING: This book contains very disturbing situations, dubious consent, breath deprivation, strong language, drugs and alcohol, and graphic violence.
Mr. X is my very first Clarissa Wild read. I was in the mood for a dark read and my friend, Savannah, suggested this one so I picked it up and said why not. I am very particular with my dark reads. I know not everything that happens in them is realistic – if I wanted realistic I would just turn on the news. I wanted it dark and dirty. Gritty and untamed, vile, repulsive and extremely erotic (in a dark sadistic way). Clarissa delivered all those things and more with Mr. X.
What I loved most about Mr. X was that I understood exactly why he was the way he was. His childhood was anything but. Growing up in a family of hired killers he saw things and heard things that would make the strongest man lose his lunch. He was forced through no fault of his own to grow up and grow up fast if he wanted to survive. His family didn’t care about his feelings or him having a normal childhood, they were all about the dollar. If you messed up or disobeyed orders you would be dealt with in the most disturbing ways.
Let’s fast forward years later when Jay is all grown up and living on her own. Working at a not so lovely club she does what she needs to do to get by. But one night, something goes terribly wrong and this is when the story gets really good. Mr. X is back and is hatred for Jay is beyond this world and he will stop at nothing to make her feel the pain he felt, pain that he blames her for.
At this point sometimes I would be confused because I was finding myself going “what?”, “who”, “why”, and “how” at every turn. Mr. X was like a puzzle and I enjoyed putting the pieces together because it made for one hell of a rollercoaster. Jay is a born fighter, one who doesn’t back down from anyone and she sure did give Mr. X a run for his money – it almost made me chuckle how defiant she was when all he wanted was her obedience.
As the story continues to flow you are thrown into a world or lust and hatred, a world where nobody is innocent and everyone is a monster. It was crazy to me how Jay didn’t put the dots together about Mr. X, how she honestly didn’t know why he has her and why he hates her. And than Clarissa gives you just a little bit more and the light bulb goes off in your head and you smile. I felt like I was in on a secret that even our leading badass defiant lady didn’t know. I hated Mr. X, I loved Mr. X, I wanted Mr. X to own me.
Jay has a bounty on her head (yep it’s true – and yep you will find this out if you read the story), her confusion on who and why astounds her, but Mr. X doesn’t plan on letting anyone have her, he wants her. He wants to destroy her, claim her, own her and eventually when he feels she has suffered as much as him, kill her. Some of the scenes in Mr. X seriously gave me goose bumps but that is a dark read for you. Mr. X doesn’t mind getting dirty and he will put anyone in the ground who tries to take away what he feels is his.
So I am rambling, but I can’t help it because there is so much going on with Mr. X and so many things I want to tell you but won’t because it will ruin the book for you.
Anywhoooo..There was a spark that Jay couldn’t quit understand between her and Mr. X. He wanted to own her and she only wanted her freedom, a choice. But when it came down to it Mr. X did something to her that made her crave him even more. So much history with these two. Mr. X’s story will bring a tear to your eye. I promise you will love him, hate him, loathe him, lust for him and understand him. He will embed himself into your head and eventually your heart.
I can’t tell you what happens with Mr. X and Jay and whether or not her bounty was collected, or who put the bounty out there all I can tell you is that there are shocks at every turn. There is crazy sex, dark crimes, and an ending that will make your mind go boom. When it ended I was seriously sitting here starring at my kindle screaming that’s it? What? No? Why? How? Oh Clarissa what have you done to me?
Originally I was going to rate this book at 4 star because it was dark – it did give me exactly what I was looking for but now that I am writing this review I feel like it pulled out so many different emotions and feelings that I can’t not give it 5 stars. The ending kind of sort of pissed me off but it pulled an emotion out of me and if the author can pull those emotions than she/he has done her job and did it beautifully. I am hoping we get more Mr. X, maybe even a novella (hint hint). So yes I would recommend this book to someone who enjoys a good dark read and doesn’t get too upset when you want to murder the leading man one minute and jump his kinky ass bones the next. Enjoy Mr. X, I know I did.